Here and ummm NOW?

So I figure I owe this blog a post. I've been following more and more blogs for inspiration and it is surely intimidating let me tell you. I got alot to work on i notice but i do have many of people asking me how my little site is doing, i should be ashamed at the attention i put into it ! :)

Anyways i'll make a conscious effort to report back to my blog.

so lets see, excuses for why i haven't put in a good entire in a while?

1. travels
2. travels
3. lazy

there ya go lets move on to what this post should be about.

While in Pennsylvania visting a couple of loved ones, i was able to pick up a trade i havent touched on in a very long time, SEWING. -awe- my dear friend molly was gracious enough to teach this to me. and i thank her. I've gotten better and better the more i sew, actually let me rephrase that "stitch" because a-matter-of-factually i actually haven't sew big pieces together or anything like that i've be altering my clothing put put spice in my wardrobe a little "this is me" and all my garments. My mom on the other hand has a sewing machine, after commandeering that i've actually just started this week sewing properly. Threading a bobbin is no joke may i add, still yet to get the hang out it. All in due time i suppose. Also i've been drawing and painting vigorously! and yes, i mean vigorously!!! there hasn't been a day that my paint brushes and pens shit out some kind of piece that i call art. It's a fucking beautiful feeling by the way to produce something out of your own being and looking at it and saying "i did that!". this entails also the sewing that i've been doing. It's nice to do but what i'd really love is some partners to engage in this with me. For now though im happy to be solo with this and hopefully like my friend molly showed me i can teach another!

Ladies.

I've been adding alot of different blogs here on blogger that i've found that I've recently gotten really inspired from lately. I hope it's not werid like a stalker thing or anything :) because it's not.

Actually that leads me more into the point i'm hoping to make with this post. GIRLS. They are everywhere and yet I'm terrified and intimidated by them all. When I was little I wanted to be you and now that i'm older i can't stand any of you. Growing up you have all types of girls that can inspire you and disgust you. some accept you and some will be after you. I do belive the female is the more sensitive and beautiful gender. How ever you use your qualities of the two is up to the person themselves. All my life i'd try to be like every and any girl of my age or older. Looking up at you and looking down on myself. Subscribing to teen vogue at 14 was the fuel that fed that fire. It made it easyer to scan on looks with out seeming strange to the pupils (though i did a fine job of that all by my self ).

Now i'm in a perid of my life where i have stopped 'finding' and am now 'being' myself. Coming to terms to belive or just a little bit of effort each day to approach my inner Sarah and looking up to that. I now have many lady friends and i'm no longer too intinidated to be friends with girls i look up to or even fancy as a person, be their personality, style, or grace. I love them all and they help me in more loving ways then any man could have done. They helped me love myself instead of making others love me for gratification. because that fades, quickly.

Also i keep in mind the younger girls that look up to me now. When they seek my approval I remind them all that the only approval they have ever needed is the person that knows them the most. Themselves. I want to let them know that being a girl at whatever age 10,16,20,25,67,80, will not be easy. Everything around them will disapprove no matter if your tall, short, skinny, curvy, brown, pale, etc; there will be that one entity that will not like you. It's nothing to worry about!!!! So keep putting on because the only person at the end of the day that you must answer too is yourself.so put on tons of make-up and never match your clothes, cut your own hair and your own pants and what the hell tear up your leggings! its all about you and how you feel about yourself.

the photos above are friends and family i know personally. Their looks are worth a honorable mention. These Girls inspire my every day look!
TOP TO BOTTOM:Samm(rest in peace you've inspired me more then i can put into words right now) Erin,Joy(sister) and I, Tara (cousin), Racheal, Olivia (cousin), Nat and friend, Molly, Joy (sister), jessica, Tasha and Jackie, Dana, Christine, Ariella (cousin).

transitional period...

So i've got my cannon camera powershot for Christmas and i've been working it pretty good. It's such a delight to actually get my hands on a camera that actually takes decent picture. As of late i've been going through a lot of disturbances with doctors, therapist and, other annoying creatures of the mental illness underworld, trying to get my disability reports to get myself back in school. Very stressful procedures and tomorrow a big meeting with parents, myself, and a couple of doctors with diagnoses galore! If you can belive it, im not looking forward to that fateful 2 o'clock pm appointment. But it's all in good intentions to get this little lady back into school, where i can take classes in art and photography and onward to bright futures!!!! as all that pans out im just toying about my days taking pictures. Now as you'll notice, my clothes are very plain Jane. Usually when im not doing anything but having tantrums of expressive madness, i don't really dress to impress! hehe! Anyways I hope you enjoy this little collection. Much more expected!

Start.Finished.

My Name: SarahJo

I am a black and white 20 year old child. I've gave up everything I've ever touched since I can remember and now, I've even given up that. I am sober and I've begun to delve into my own passion, Art. For the first time I'm awake and I can agian gain back what I've lost through so many tantrums of running away. I'm starting school soon here in miami-dade county. while in therapy, attending AA meetings, and Learning Disability testing gets fully underway to get to school, I plan on recording my first passion, photography and clothing. All that will have its' proper introduction as soon as I put my looks together. For now my own introduction. Not even knowing at this point who will read this I ask myself 'why be so honest about your life in the beginning?'. Well it's honestly the best time to say it. I mean why not? when else will anyone say all these odd facts about one's self? middle of the way there? Keep people in suspense? Or just myself? I digress... I don't even know where to get back, HA always happens. If your as lost as me then good! we'll get back on track. I don't know anything about proper grammar or spelling so if be that a pet peeve for you, I'm sorry but I can't help you. If you love clothing and Art as me, then welcome. Watch me now as I put together and hold up a little personal fashion blog in my inspirations.